“For the past couple of years I have been feeling a pull to pagan religions. I have been trying meditation and reading everything I can get my hands on, but I have never felt a connection to any of the pantheons. Besides reading and meditation do you have any recommendations on how to figure out where I should look? Or what I should try next?”
The pace you move at and what you want to do next is always up to you. Being, or trying to connect to a pantheon is not vital to Paganism. Think of deities as tools (in a non-offensive way). They’re simply channels to help grow and expand the energy you put into a spell or ritual like a crystal or an object would do. What is everything on a Witch’s altar? The candles, herbs, incense, crystals, stones, wand, etc.? They’re tools. Why? To help you enhance, focus, and direct your energy and concentration. Deities serve the same purpose. They don’t give you the power, they simple help you with yours.
It’s easier to find a connection with a pantheon or deity if you call out for them instead of you trying to go out and find them. Through meditation you can do this, simply by releasing energy for a callback. Sometimes something will come up shortly after, sometimes it’ll take a couple of tries. But as I mentioned, it’s not always necessary to feel the need to have to have a connection to a pantheon or deity. Pagan practices are personal and for personal and spiritual growth, with or without the help of tools.
For the longest time I was extremely drawn to the Egyptian pantheon, Anubis specifically. I was obsessed with ancient Egyptian culture, religion, and practices – the Gods and Goddesses fascinated me. Anubis was my God. But then I got older and heavier, more logical knowledge came to me, and Anubis and I drifted apart. I can say I have a connection with at least one God/dess from every pantheon, but the worship of deities is a very Witchcraft/Wicca thing. The Universe is my God now. The Sun and Moon are the gatekeepers that keep the World, our Mother, alive.
It’ll come to you. One day it’ll hit you and you’ll answer your own question when you realize what you’re really seeking.